I had a difficult time deciding on what to put on my wishlist for our office kris kringle. When I finally had something in mind, it seems that it’s not something that would make me happy.

If I could just write stuffs that comes from the deepest corner of my heart, the wishlist would have the following things:

1. I wish that there would be no such thing as “leaving each other” in this world. I am terrified of the idea of being left alone by someone that I truly love.

2. I wish for a brand new and sparkling BMW. Libre ang mangarap.

3. To have a break from the city and from everything related to work and problems at home. Baguio or Cebu sounds like fun. Or for a trip out of the country, all expense paid for two. Libre ulit ang mangarap. I’m tired of the city. The pollution, the traffic, the mess being created regularly by dirty politics. I want to run somewhere far and escape it all. With him.

4. I’d wish for passion about everything that I do. I want to accomplish things the best way possible but I’d also like to not be half hearted about it.

5. I want to have the capability to trust again. I want to trust people when they tell me this and that. I don’t want to be pessimistic about everything. It is not good and I know that.

6. I want to be free of debts and I want some savings on my bank account. Need I say more?

7. I want to have self confidence (but I don’t want to be arrogant). I want to value myself more and I want to radiate happiness through my personality. I have no idea how to do it. I need help.

8. I wish my father will get tired of drinking and gambling. It’s painful to see him at those stages and I’m worried about what too much alcohol would do to his body.

9. I wish my mom would take care of her health more. She eats a lot and is gaining so much weight I’m a little worried about her health nowadays.

10. I wish I could say items 9-10 to them. So that they’ll know I’m worried.